when one door closes another opens

well as i said before i have lost some friends one of tham is matt. he has been madly in love with me years but i have never felt the same way for him. well today i made a new friend at work named nicholas. who just happens to be matts older brothers best friend. kinda funny eh. well nicholas is gay and i think may turn out to be a good friend. i have had a hard time without having matt in my life anymore but i think the lord put nicholas in my life at the prefect time. im so grateful for this door that has been oppened now i can know how matt is he he arent i smart.

it has been forever

so it has been forever i apologize. i have been working two jobs at seagull and convergys and i love what i do at both places i have made many friends and it has been good for me to not be stuck in the house so much. altghough i am so busy with life and such. i am srill seeing dallas and to answer your question right off no there isnt a ring someday there will be but for the time being there is not which i am okay with. though my mom is not so much. i have been going through my first crisis as people would call it i have lost some very dear close friends of mine. and although in the long run it will be good for me i struggle to know why things happen. this christmas was a bit wierd for me because it did not feel like christmas it felt like a normal day for the most part. good news there was not as much drama as there was last year but im sad to say yes there was steal drama. my mother turned the big fifty this year and we went to the roof for dinner which was awesomely good but expensive. i made her an awesome book with out favorite memories and pictures. i bought myself and internet phone which i love and yes thats the way im communictaing with you now. well i love you all amd hope you all are doing well